So I don't know if you know this but I'm really good at chirpsin mums. Like really really good. I do it all the time, for the experience at least, if nothing else! In fact, when I went on holiday to Canada, I went to loads of parties with mums and I think I charmed 90% of them xD ... erm .. I ran into the dog house once when I chirpsed a mum too well o.O she had extended an informal proposal for her son to my cousin's family, but my cousin was being an idiot since she is one (seriously, even her mum says this) and only paying attention to the son while ignoring everyone else .. anyhow, long story short, since I spent the dawat (Bengali word for party, usually dinner party but can also be lunch, etc) chatting her and her daughters up, by the end of the week, they withdrew the proposal from my cousin and planned to extend it to me (awkward times, I slept in the basement from then on till the end of our trip) but then had to unextend it since I was too young to get married.

Anyhoo, thats my thing. Chirpsing mums. And this is something I was well proud of, sharing my secret with other friends hoping to secure some proposals and always getting in some practice. But apparently I'm not the only one doing this. The reason why I bought this up is because I can hear my parents talking next door (they must think I'm asleep) about some guy my dad met who basically swept him off his feet (I swear my dad is a teeny tiny bit homosexual. I'm not even joking, the man is metro to the extreme and often talks about how this guy or that guy is really handsome. Did I tell you about the time I had to stand by watching him flirt shamelessly with the blatant gay guy at Lush? Baba didn't even know he was flirting but he totally was. It was so embarrassing ... and the hot gay guy didn't help either -___-) and how he's such a nice boy blahdeblah, etc. And I'm like OMG HE TOTALLY CHIRPSED MY DAD.

Or idk, maybe he really is a nice guy? Anyway it doesn't matter ... after almost a second week of Masters, I've realised how much of an Academic Slut I am, sitting and swooning at the front row of all my units, coming out of the lectures with multiple academic orgasms :D seriously though, the lecturers I got this year are so effin amazing!

I swear I think I'm bipolar. Maybe mildly bipolar, but its there! One minute (okay mostly one half of the day, or one day, rather then a minute to minute thing) I'm really happy, the next I'm crazy angry when all of a sudden I'm sad and soppy. You know how they show (or used to anyway) crazy neurotic women getting angry and throwing plates? I was SO close to doing that the other day. Just really wanted to just act crazy. I don't know, I think it would be really liberating or something. Man, I really need to take up kick boxing or something :P clay pigeon shooting??? Or maybe I'll just wait when no one is at home, wear my swimming goggles and really shatter some plates. But you know, its not the same if its planned, as it would be if it was done at a heat of the moment kind of thing.

Anyhow, recently, I've just been so angry. At every little thing and everyone. I don't know why, and its kind of worried me so I went to speak to my GP about it and she was like take some diazepam and I was like are you crazy?! I do not need to be drugged up thank you very much. I don't know ... its really not like me I think. Well it is, I have always had a short temper that easily flares up but thing is though, that was during you know, puberty and shit. And then after I was fine. Sure I'd have a week of ups and downs, ahem, but then I'd be fine. But like recently (last few months), I'm like always getting so angry. I don't know what to do :/ snapping at my family (and some close friends), which in turn causes more arguments and even more anger. Its like a never ending cycle.

Aghhh .. maybe I just need to get laid?!?!